February 2012
12 posts
I finally know what I want for my birthday.
I want one week of nothing but happiness. No family fighting. No stressing about college or school in general. No bad things happening to my loved ones. No accidental pregnancies. No sister wanting to move out. No nothing. I don’t even really need the happy part of it… Just nothing bad, for once…. That would be a miracle. That’s all I want for my birthday. Hope it’s...
Waiting for bad things to happen is the worst feeling in the world. It’s like the anticipation is studded and laced with dread. This could ruin my entire life. And I’m terrified.
jeremiah: “I want to start off by saying if you... →
itsjeremiah:
“I want to start off by saying if you want an answer at the end, prepare to be disappointed. There just isn’t one.”
“I was an intern at Nickelodeon Studios for a year in 2005 for my degree in animation. It wasn’t paid of course, most internships aren’t, but it did have some perks beyond…
I…. I don’t even know….
I was terrified today
Because I fit all the warning descriptions of a person who could commit suicide.
January 2012
8 posts
Too many tears for one day. I’m so tired, I can’t even keep my eyes open. All I want is him in my bed with me, arm around me, kissing my forehead or the back of my neck. I need him right now, but I can feel myself losing him. I’m losing the most important thing in my life. I’m losing my baby.
Today, I told my boyfriend he needed to change and be better, or I was leaving. I’ve warned him 3 times already. He came over and we cried together, wiping each others tears away. He said he was sorry and that he can’t lose me. I said okay. The thing that hit me the hardest was the way he was touching me. He touched me like i was going to disappear and he would never be able to touch...
Standing in my garage crying with my love is the last thing I wanted today.
I am lonely a lot.
And you would think that is the last thing I would be feeling because I have someone to love. But I’m starting to feel like I don’t even have him anymore.
Boyfriend says,
“Babe, I want a baby girl sooo bad… I can’t wait, so you’re getting pregnant as soon as you turn 19, okay?”
Me,
“lol uhm….”
Was just on the phone listening to my boyfriend cry. Because of me. Therefore I cried. And then we cried together. For two hours. I’m a terrible person. And I won’t let myself forget it. And that will lead to me losing everything. Just like last time.
Best friend who has:
~been fingered
~been eaten out
~given blow jobs
~given hand jobs
~been fully groped
~bought condoms
I told this best friend that I lost my virginity, and she called me a bad person. She told me she would never do such a terrible thing. She said it was sacred. She told me I shouldn’t have given it away. She told me she had self respect. She pretty much called me a...
December 2011
7 posts
I'm sad
And I need sex. It’ll make me feel better. Damn boyfriend for being too busy to see me……
I lost my virginity today. My boyfriend came over, we made out in bed, and he took my shorts and underwear off. We both went down on each other, and when he decided it was time, he just pulled down his underwear and I guided him in slowly. It hurt, but it was amazing. We went full force for a while. When he was finished, he layed on top of me, still inside of me but not moving, and kissed my...
Boyfriend goes into Walmart to buy condoms for the first time. He thinks he got off easy cuz it’s late and the store is fairly empty. One problem: self check outs are closed. He goes to the register puts down the other things he needs, batteries and soda. The lady is super friendly and, talking away, checks out one item, then the other and gets to the last item and stops talking. She looks...
Hyperventilating a bit.
In 18 hours, I will lose my virginity. Holy. Fuck.
Maybe my mom's right.
I’m tired of being in such a bad mood all the time. I’m mad at everyone always, and I’m constantly sick of being around people. I’m getting back to the point where I don’t want to get out of bed anymore. I’d rather just lie here and not live life. I’m just tired of it all. I rarely see my boyfriend anymore, since he started working. I’m just feeling...
Knowing that you will lose something...
I honestly don’t know if I will miss it or not. As soon as it’s gone, am I going to be wanting it back? It might not be an object, but should I treat it just the same? And is it really losing it if I am giving it to someone? I’ve given them everything I had already, and now they are getting the last piece of me. And I get theirs. My last barier of purity. But I’m ready. My...
November 2011
4 posts
First times
There’s a first time for everything, and today was full of firsts. Firsts times don’t always go perfectly, but they are the good kind of awkward and great for learning. 11.11.11 is a day I will never forget.
I had a dream today
There was a little girl at a park, must have been 4 or 5. I guess I made her up to be the baby sister of my recently dead friend. She was up at the highest part of the playground, and was standing there ready to jump. I called out to her, running towards her, only hoping I could catch her in time. She jumped and aimed her head at the ground, and I missed her. But she jumped wrong and landed on her...
October 2011
8 posts
my parents: I have such a pretty daughter
my grandparents: so how many boyfriends have you gone through this week?
people from my school: and here we have this deformed potato
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I had a wonderful afternoon...
Cuddling. Laying on the couch wrapped in each other’s arms. Then he flipped onto his stomach, half on top of me, and kissed my cheek. He began kissing slowly, and I knew he was going to tease me. He kissed my nose, then chin, and the corner of my mouth. Then he brushed his lips over mine, and backed away as soon as I tried to fully kiss him. My heart began to beat faster at the look on his...
I'm tired of being tired,
But tired is all I am and all I will ever be. Wish I could be fully awake for just one day.
Where did all the grown-ups go?
Maturity is a lost cause. I’ve given up on looking for something that no longer exists in society. No wonder the world is quickly heading to hell. We need adults in a world run by children.
He just left, but I miss him already.....
September 2011
21 posts
How is Adam Lavigne even real?
His voice and lyrics give me chills every single time… Maroon 5 is the only band that can do that. He’s fucking amazing. I can has, yes?
Keira Knightly is hot as hell
This is all
i want a guy who cant control himself around me. I want him to chase me around wanting to rip my clothes off. I want him to take control and dominate me for a night. too much to ask? apparently.
Anonymous asked: Do you plan on having sex with the guy you talk about? You seem to want to
…when he slides his fingers a bit under the bottom of my shorts, or when he brings his hand between my legs and grabs at my inner thigh, my entire body instantly is covered in goosebumps.
Dear girls of desert ridge high school,
Stop being so damn stupid. Usually, I would say that teenage guys are more stupid than girls, but lately I feel like you’re trying really hard to prove me wrong. You dress like whores, you stomachs hanging out of your shirt, and ass hanging out of your “shorts”. After dressing like this, you scream at the rest of us to respect you because we “don’t know the real...
I want to be held and I want his hands to roam my...
But I don’t want him to feel me. I don’t want him to touch me and feel how disgusting I am. I’m just waiting for the day that he realizes that I’m not good enough for him. The day he will stop telling me that I’m beautiful.
4 tags
I hate you, but
I miss you way too much.
All i want
is to go to bed and sleep for 20 hours. but i cant. i have college homework… i dont know if i can do this much longer….. my brain is so tired i cant think straight. all i want and all i need is sleep. but there’s just never enough to go around so that i get some. i’m on the verge of passing out honestly…
Things that make me happy:
Green tea with orange, passion fruit, and jasmine. Hot with honey.